Don't be surprised if a lot of what I'm about to say doesn't make sense. I'm temporarily stoned.
It's one a.m., I've been asleep for 2 hrs. on a heating pad that's been turned up on HIGH and two percocets. If I felt better I'd make percocet a link for those of you who don't know what it is. And yes, it is my perscription but for a completely different problem. I've got another migraine but these are supposed to be for when my kidney stones flare up. But that's another story.
As you can probably tell from this latest self-portrait, I only wish I was joking.
I'm not telling you all this for sympathy, it's just a reality check into my not-so-perfect I've-got-problems-like-everybody else life. So really, don't feel sorry for me. Just let me tell my story.
Went to bed with another migraine. I've taken 3 imitrex shots already in the last week and I don't dare take another one or they won't work for me for awhile. They are part of my sanity and I don't want to blow it. Pain management is a big key to a decent/happy life.
Couldn't take fiorcet which is my second weapon in the arsenal because I've taken 4 in the last few days. And, by how I was feeling I could tell they probably wouldn't work.
So, put some peppermint oil on my temple, turned the heating pad on high, waited for my magic white pills to make me comfortable and went to la-la- nighty-night land. Do I feel 100% right now from all of that. Obviously not, but am I coping? Yes. If there's one thing I've learned through all this it's that keeping the pain somewhat under my control is ESSENTIAL to mental health. When it's managed, I can feel HOPE. When it's not, well then it's (as T-Sam-E would say), "Welcome to the Dark Side."
Your comments are welcome and appreciated but be sensitive to my 26 year struggle with migraines. Be sensitive that my picture looks like shit because that's how I feel temporarily. Be sensitive that its 1 a.m. and I wouldn't even get behind the wheel right now (should I be blogging?!?). All I'm trying to say is that I'm fragile and I have feelings....
Welcome to my Dark Side.